What do you do when you only have one hour…

to create an apple tree hat?

You get one of your kid’s caps, you pull out your storage box of odds and ends from projects past, and you do the best you can. 🙂

My son J has a book chat today, which involves a story about trees. He’s supposed to come in an apple tree hat, holding in his hands apples and apple juice. The apples were easy: we always have apples in our ref because the kids snack on them all the time. Apple juice was easy too: they take apple juice in tetra pack boxes to school for their snacktime. But an apple tree hat? With one hour to prepare?

Admission of guilt: Yes, I had last night to work on this; Queen Procrastinator didn’t really have to push it to one hour before departure time for the ride to school. 😛 But we had the book launch last night, which was extremely successful by the way 😉 and after that, our core group went to Larry’s Bar to eat our hearts out (there was extremely delicious food at the launch, but we of course could not eat as we were doing the rounds with the guests). In short, we got home pretty late, and I had a terrible headache after (too much eating after? 😆 ) so I went straight to bed with plans to make the hat this morning.

Now, I should say I have never seen an apple tree in real life. Mango trees, coconut trees, santol trees, starfruit trees, almost all tropical trees–yes. I’ve even climbed many of them in my childhood days. Apple trees, however, are not native to my part of the world. But… a tree is a tree is a tree. Especially when you have limited time and need to work with whatever resources you have on hand.

Thank goodness that last year my sister and I had a business project of providing gift basket packaging to the largest ex-pat grocery store in Malaysia. Because of that business (which involved loads of fun as we designed and handcrafted the packaging for the store’s gift baskets), I had leftover odds and ends–think leaves, branches, a little of this and a little of that.

Here’s what about half an hour of working resulted in (the other half hour spent rummaging for materials, haha!):

J’s Apple Tree Hat

Having finished that, and with a very happy little tree-hat-wearing little boy, I find out… classes are suspended today because of some disorder in the streets (politically speaking). But that’s a completely different story… and one that is still unfolding on my TV set as I watch the news now.

At least, as it turns out, we have the hat ready now, way ahead of time. 😀

Tonight’s the night!

It’s gonna be alright… Ain’t nobody gonna stop us now… Come on, everybody, sing along that Rod Stewart song along with me!!!

😆 How’s that for a flashback to the 70s huh? 😆

We’re finally launching the Big Project tonight. Here’s what the invite looks like:

Our Father ~ The Book Launch

Will post more stuff about it tomorrow. Just have to get through the launch tonight (and get through my closet as well: I have no idea what I’m going to wear, as I don’t own any dresses. Hmmm. Maybe I’ll go in my usual jeans. hehe) Can you tell I’m just a teeny weeny bit stressed about this? (I hate publicity; I like hiding in the background; I’m shy. Seriously! 😆  ).

Here’s part of the layout I made about this project (made the bigger layout as part of our Now We’re Rockin’ course lesson):

Journey of a Dream, Partial Layout Item

{ Credits: Circle Template by Jessica Sprague }

Okay, enough about that and on to our much-delayed freebie!

Lullaby and Goodnight…

The reason I call this much-delayed is because it took me approximately 6 hours to upload this to my 4shared site, a lot of fiddling around, a lot of waiting, a lot of harumphing, deleting, re-zipping, re-testing, some more harumphing, until I was able to get this uploaded. 😆 Turns out it was some kink in my zipped file, I think. It did okay with the extraction and password when I tested it, but for some reason it would take forever to upload!

So, phew!, at least it’s working now and I have the link for it! Yippee! You have no idea of how much I’ve been itching to get this to you (so I hope you like it, or … that would’ve been five hours gone to waste. hahahaha!!!)

Here’s what Christmas Lullaby looks like (This is Set 1):

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LivEdesigns Christmas Lullaby Set1 Preview

I call it Christmas Lullaby because the colors are softer and more muted, sort of reminds me of a peaceful, quiet Christmas. There are 3 highly textured papers in this set, along with 5 different textured brads. (Loads of Thank You’s for the materials I used are listed in my TOU credits!) There’s more coming… I’m very excited to post the next set for tomorrow (alpha tags! woohoo! with enough space for a bit of journaling on them! ), so don’t forget to pass by for that one as well! 😉

Download Set 1 of Christmas Lullaby. Zip password is quietpeace

ETA: Sorry, download link is no longer available.

Oh… and one more thing… since I’m really getting into the Christmas spirit, I think I’m going to come up with two more separate Christmas kits. Keep passing by for those too!

Well. I spent the whole day trying to upload this and now I have to ~groan~ start getting ready for the Big Project’s Big Event. Anyone want to go in my place and pretend they’re me? You’re most welcome!!! 😆

Have a great day, my sweeties, and thank you for the love you leave in my blog as you download! Hope you like this!

This one looks like it’s going to last…

for some time, if not forever.

My boys (3 and 5 years old) have been singing this every single day, about 10 times a day at least.

It’s such a sad song, but they totally love it, and I don’t see anything wrong with it, actually. Except that it kind of nudges my heart in a way unknown to my kids, because I could’ve been singing this myself when I lost my mom at the age of eight.

My 5-year-old once said to me, after another round of this song: Mom, I am sooooo happy that you’re alive.

Yeah. Me too.

Because my kids don’t know this, but the one thing I have always asked from God, as far back as I can remember, is that when I have kids of my own,  He blesses me with enough time on earth to be there for them till they don’t need me anymore.

I have always told my husband that, at the end of the day, I don’t dream of castles in the sky. I could be sitting on the ladder of our nipa hut and planting vegetables in the garden all day, as long as we sit together holding hands and watching the sunset, still in love with each other, still loving and being loved by our sons, and loving God above all, then that would’ve been a full life for me.

Ah. Being a wife to my hubby. Being a mother to my five sons. I think in the whole wide world, these are the greatest blessings I have ever received.

What are the greatest blessings you have received? What is your definition of a full life?

I will join you in thanking Him for all that He has given you, me, us, everyone.

Have a great day! 😉

Today’s Funny

Got home close to midnight from a planning meeting for the next Big Project, and who did I find wide awake, waiting for me and hubby to come home? My five-year-old J, who joined us for a midnight snack of burgers, chicken sandwiches, ketchup and fries, and macaroni salad (yum! >burp!<)

Now this wonderfully articulate son of ours constantly amazes me with his snippets of conversation. This is the little guy who told me when he was three years old “Mama, I am so disappointed with you” when I didn’t allow him to drink cola. Hmmmm… disappointed? Can you spell that for me, son?  😛

Anyway, he comes up with the most astounding insights and I often am left speechless and in awe when he tells me what’s on his mind. I always wonder: from which corner of his brain does he pull out all these thoughts? He seems to have an innate understanding of so many things, and often (and best of all) they are hilarious!

Today he declared out of the blue: Mama, I know the difference between real and fake.

Me: Hmmm?

J: You want to know what fake means?

Me: Okay, tell me.

J: Fake is when you buy a Zoid (his current craze) and then it breaks apart easily and then when you try to fix it you can’t ever get it back together again.

😆

Really. How do these kids come up with these things?    8)

There are truly days like these…

when it seems the universe suddenly remembers that you exist, that you’ve had a lot of time to play and have fun, and that it’s about time you started acting like the adult you are with real-life responsibilities. So yup, I’ve been busted. I’ve played around for quite some time (just totally indulging in scrapping and designing) and now I have to roll up my sleeves and get to work.

It’s that time of year when

– the schools call the parents to come pick up the report cards of their kids … and it baffles me, but it seems they like to hold programs and shows around the same period that you’re coming to school to meet the teachers–I can almost imagine them rubbing their hands in glee and saying, well, why don’t we load these wonderful parents with more stuff to do for their kids?

– the photography project I mentioned (it seems as though that was eons ago that I wrote about it) is on its last leg before it jets off into completion mode (woohoo!)

– the quarterly newsletter that I edit is due in a few days (haven’t even glanced a bit at the articles bursting through the envelope)…

– the design project for my sisters’ business is due in about 7 days

– oh, and let’s not forget about the million and one usual duties of a mother and wife

Thank goodness I just finished my first layout for the Stand Up & Scrap challenge! That was a whole lot of fun to do (it was a mixture of nervousness and just plain excitement over having to scrap without procrastinating, something that I kind of suffer from when it comes to creative output. I diddle and daddle and dawdle until everything comes together in one snap, and then it gets done. Sometimes it takes forever to get it done… but when I have a deadline, like we do in Stand Up & Scrap, I’m forced to make forever last a day ) ).

So you will forgive me, please?, if I am panting and huffing my way here today (tonight? to-dawn? heeheehee).

To relax, I’ve been learning a new piece on the piano, Meditation from Thais… beautiful, haunting song… I totally love this piece because it brings me warm memories of my childhood days when my uncle used to play this on the violin with my aunt accompanying him on the piano. Not that we really sat and listened attentively… my cousin and I went on playing our Little House pretend-character games (she was Mary and I was Laura), seemingly oblivious to the wonderful concerto accompanying our play. But it sticks. Years pass, and the melodies that entered your subconscious surface and bring warm fuzzies each and every time. Sigh.

Here’s how it sounds, if you’re curious to know ( this is the violin piece–the piece was originally written for the violin, but I am learning the piano version D )

This made me smile.

I take my 5-year-old son to school to school everyday, and to while away the time in the car, I bring along a notebook where I scribble and doodle and jot down anything that I want to remember (have I mentioned I have a (t)rusty memory???). Well, lately I’ve taken to making lots of swirls and curly things, because I’ve been wanting to incorporate these into freebies for you eventually. My son loves looking at this little notebook (because he also uses it to scribble when he wants to while away his time. hehe). Well, he came upon those swirly doodles one day and asked what they were. I told him they were just doodles. Well, several days after, he asks for my notebook and, pen poised in the air, declares that he’s going to make a drawing for me. Here’s what he made:

Swirly People

I oohed and aahed and said “Wow!!! What’s that?” He said (and this totally had me in awe): “This is a swirly man, mama, for you. Because you make swirly drawings.” (Now, is that a son of a scrapper or what? hahaha).

This will make you smile (I hope!)

Oh and did I mention I’ve been working on designing more freebies for you? Don’t think I’ve forgotten… I’ve just been trying to come up with more “developed” (is that the word? I know it’s not, but it’s 3AM and my wordbank in my brain is failing me at the moment) freebies for you. What I mean is freebies with more variety, more texture, more whatever… just more. ;) More “developed” –insert the more appropriate word here if you find it–freebies also means more labor-intensive design work… so it’s taken me longer to produce these babies… I hope you’ll forgive me for the delay.So without delaying any further, here is the latest (still on the Pinky Promise kit):

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Download it here. The zip password is busybee. Drop shadows are there for preview purposes only. This set contains 2 papers (1 solid, 1 patterned), slightly textured… the blue one has a bit of a grungy look to it. I also included a round tag and 2 beaded pins for you to use in case you want to pin the tag (or photos, or journaling blocks, or whatever you fancy! ) ) on your layout. I’m sure you already know this, but just for the sake of saying it (ehhehe), in case you want to use the pin on other items and give it a realistic look, use your eraser tool to erase the parts that should be hidden under the item you’re pinning down. I included a sample of the pin and tag… and when I had finished it, I thought: hmmm, why don’t I throw that in as well, so that my dearest friends have less work to do with this particular tag and pin? So there it is, in the kit as well! D

ETA: Sorry, link is no longer available.

Let me know what you think, please? Your comments really do help me in my design work… a lot more than you could ever imagine! Thanks in advance, honeys!

Some postcript notes:

pooja, dear, I hear you: let me go try to design something with elephants… it’s going to take some work as the elephants I know how to draw are a bit on the cartoony side :D… but I’ll do my best to come up with something for you!

I discovered the whole Lavender Porch kit (all the freebies) included in the freebie list here. (Although I did have to scroll all the way down to find them… hahahaha). I am always amazed to find my freebies “found” as wordpress is normally not as accessible to freebie finders as blogger is… but hey, I’m happy! Freebies on any freebie finder means more people get to play with my humble gifts! D

Now, off to bed or I won’t be functional tomorrow, and there’s lots more to do… again! Night-y, my friends! Thanks for passing by and do come around again! Soon! ;)

LOOOOOOVE it!

853705_happy_3-by-iikozen.jpgWooooohooooo!!! I am sooooo happy!!! I just discovered something!!!

But first, let’s talk about happy things:

I confess. I am a kid at heart. The simplest things can make me jump for joy. (Case in point: everytime my husband comes through the front door at the end of his work day, it’s all I can do to keep myself from jumping up and bounding over to him lest I seem like an over-eager puppy! 😆 )

What are the things that put a silly grin or a contented smile on your face? What makes every pore in your being ooze with happiness? Make a list! Post it in my comments space here! And then, if you’ve got energy left over, go and scrap about it! (And then give me a link so I can put it up here on my blog!) Wouldn’t that be great?

What makes me happy? Simple things. Today, after having tried to log onto my blog unsuccessfully for the past 8 hours, the first thing that would probably come out of my mouth is: being able to log on to my blog so I can release the freebie that I’ve worked so hard on. 😀

Seriously though, top on my Happy List: my faith, my family (husband and five sons, always in that order 🙂 ), my friends (and very high on that sublist is my playground family at Jessica’s).

LIFE makes me happy, being alive, being a wife to my wonderful husband (can’t imagine ever being happy with any other man), being a mom to my five sons (can’t imagine ever being happy with any other five kids).

My camera makes me happy, especially when after days of taking a zillion photos that I’m pretty happy with, I get one or two or even three that make me suck in my breath and say “woooooow.” (Doesn’t happen often, so this type of happy moment is often accompanied by a grateful look thrown up to the heavens).

Digi-scrapping makes me happy. Designing makes me happy. Giving away my designs to my very appreciative and supportive friends makes me happy.

Helping others always, always makes me happy. Making people laugh makes me happy. (Hmmm, kind of makes me sound like I used to be a clown in my past life)

Painting with oil, and the freedom to wipe my brushes onto my old paint-stained jeans, makes me happy.

Playing games with my kids, hugging them, looking at them… heck, anything that has to do with my kids makes me happy. (Okay, I’ve connected happiness with family three times already; that says a lot, don’t you think? haha)

Finding digital freebies, especially commercial use freebies (ooohhhhh wheeee!!!), makes me happy.

Reading great books makes me happy.

Writing makes me happy, especially when the words flow so smoothly and effortlessly. Happy, happy, happy!

Standing under the shower and feeling squeaky clean after always makes me happy.

And I could go on and on. Because I’m just a really happy girl at heart.

And if there’s something else that makes me really happy, another absolute happy-necessity in my life, it’s discovery. Discovering new things, discovering how to make things work better, discovering new friends, discovering the special in the ordinary: these make me happy.

And like the great wise men of old say, your happiness always doubles when you share it with others.

So here’s my latest happy discovery that I totally want to share with you:

A few weeks back, Jessica so wonderfully shared with us a tip that she discovered about how to scroll through different font types in PSE without having to hit the font type each time to see how it would look on your typed text. (It’s a great tip; go check it out!!!) I tried it but I couldn’t make it work for me… (definitely user-error, where the user is me). 😆

Well, here’s my happy discovery! If you have a scroll wheel on your mouse, it works in place of the up and down arrow keys! Woohoo! (And here is also where I got to correct my user-error! I found out what my wrong move was! I had done all that Jessica instructed, except that when I got to the part of the font type dropdown menu, I hit the arrow keys BEFORE i clicked on any font type. No wonder it wasn’t working for me! I realized I had to click on any font FIRST on the font type list, and THEN hit the arrow keys–or, joy of joys, get my scroll wheel to do the up and down work! Okay, this may be what many of you would consider a duh moment of mine, but can I tell you how great it feels to have that “duuuh” transform into “eureka” ? hahahaha!!! )

So that’s my happy discovery. Not a big one, and certainly not an original one (credit goes to Jessica for that), but just discovering that I could make it work… well! Yeehaw! That’s a great thing! 😛

Now, let’s get to your happy lists: What’s on them? Write as much as you want, make your post as long as you wish–I love reading what you have to say 😉

In the meantime, I’ll be working on uploading a new surprise for you!

This Is Why

chaticons by alexmathers at stock.xchngThere’s a nice lady over at BlogHer who wants to know why we do what we do: scrapbook, that is. Frankly, I’ve never asked myself that question–perhaps because, to me, that would be like asking myself why I breathe, why I eat, why I sleep. It doesn’t get more basic than that.

But it’s an interesting question, now that it’s been asked. And my good friend Jessica Sprague has encouraged us, her devoted playground inhabitants, to make our voices heard. So here’s my one little voice among thousands.

Why do I scrapbook?

Why do musicians put down into melodies what they can easily say in plain words? Because it’s a much happier way to express what you need to say. (If you have a fretful sleepy child, try saying “Lullaby and good night” and then try singing it, and then tell me which was more effective in getting those eyes to droop contentedly). I scrapbook because it makes me happy. I scrapbook because it’s a much nicer way for me to express what I want to say, even if what I celebrate on a layout is actually the most mundane event of the day. It helps me to see the world with a singing heart.

Why do historians write history? Everyone wants to understand what happens around them. And having understood, they want to pass on the insights they’ve gained. Scrapbooking allows me to do that for my children, to leave them with a lasting legacy of my view of our lives as well as lessons learned. Scrapbooking allows me to write my own history, to record what is important to me, for myself and for the generations that will come after me. Others may easily say But who’s going to care in a million years? My answer: who can tell that they wouldn’t? We can convince ourselves that it’s a silly and sentimental trip, but really, if Anne Frank had said Who would care whether I put my thoughts down in this little tattered but highly treasured notebook?, would we have had a wonderful glimpse into the poignant life of this little girl living in the midst of a very real and terrifying war? 

Why do authors write? Everyone likes to listen to stories. Everyone likes to tell stories. I  scrapbook to tell stories. My scrapbooks are my way of passing on to my children (and perhaps they will want to pass on to their children) my life, their lives, our family’s lives, the little ordinary things that, taken altogether, make up a genuine uniqueness that can never be duplicated elsewhere. It is my way of making sure my story and their stories get told. It is my way of ensuring that they will always have visual evidence of how much those whom I love mean to me. My mother passed away when I was eight, and though I know instinctively that she loved me as any mother would her child, I had nothing written down, no letter, no note, nothing visual that I could go back on during those times when memory just failed and there was a need to at least read that she loved me, since I could no longer hear it. I want to make sure when my kids have to go through that, they will have something to hold in their hands, a powerful visual message made of photos and my own words, to tell them over and over again, as often as they care to look at the pages, how much I truly love them.

Why do poets write verse instead of prose? I love to write, always have and always will. It is, to me, as essential as living. Writing allows me to tell my story in my own words; and who of us has no story to tell? Every day is a journey, and every journey is rife with stories waiting to be told. The cavemen passed on their stories by mouth–they too had that need. It’s primitive yet real. I scrapbook because I want to satisfy that same need that has existed since time began.

Why do photographers take photos, when every split second the scene changes and then it’s gone? Ah, but see, that is precisely why. Photographers and I, we love taking photos. We like to hold in our hands the power to capture a moment from our own viewpoint and preserve it forever on tangible paper. It’s freezing a moment in time so that you can come back to it again and again. It’s sort of like being able to bottle up happiness and being able to sniff a little of it every now and then, whether it’s because you need some upliftment or because you just want to float in its overflow.

Why do painters paint? Every artist wants to share with others his view of the world as he sees it. Painters have their own choices of media: brushes or fingers or palette knives, oil or water color,  canvass or paper or walls. Scrapbookers have their choices: digital or paper, sweet or grungy: we all have different styles. And we all choose what fits us best in our quest to record our view of life. I scrapbook because I am an artist at heart. I love drawing, I love painting, I love creating. I love taking something and making something more out of it. It’s pretty much like my desire to leave this world a better place than when I came into it. It’s leaving my mark, my individual contribution to what is already there. Scrapbooking allows me to express myself and release my creative juices using brushes, paper, photos, my computer, my printer (oh yeah, technology works for me big-time!).

Why did Alexander Graham Bell invent the telephone? Why do we write letters or emails or telegrams? Our makeup as human beings dictates the need to reach out and touch someone instead of living on an island separate from the rest of creation. Scrapbookers are a wonderful community to move with. There is real support and real friendship, none of which requires parental consent and all only of the positive, clean, uplifting kind. To be sure, this can be found anywhere; it is not exclusive to this large group of people who go crazy about the latest brushes or papers or wordart or screws and brads. But it is wonderful to be a part of a larger, worldwide community whose bridges are built strong, transcending differences in race, color, creed and geography, because of a shared love and appreciation for what each of us holds dearest to our hearts, because of a certain courage that allows us to put our heart out on a piece of paper and trust that no one will trample over what we’ve just shared from the deepest recesses of our very being.

Why do I scrapbook? I have a passionate desire to express myself in a combination of words, art, and photos. I want to record my world the way I see it. It’s really a matter of self-expression.  I am a living being and I want to celebrate life, mine as much as the lives that belong to those around me. I am a wife and a mother of five sons, and I treasure the look on my boys’ faces when they see me celebrate them through my scrapbook creations. I have struggles and triumphs and pains and joys, and putting them down in my choice of art form allows me to taste and savor these experiences over and over again, and perhaps learn a bit more each time.

Without  scrapbooking, my life would be sorely lacking the beauty of art, the celebration of joy, the declarations of love, the amazement with the ordinary, the wisdom and insight gained as one gazes at past events, the poignant recall of memories, the release of pent-up emotions and creative rushes, the friendships that transcend all boundaries.

I scrapbook because I like to live, laugh, and love fully… and then be able to experience all that over and over again, alone or with those who matter, as we leaf through the pages of my creation.

This is why I scrapbook.

Hoo Ha Ha!

584232_happy_cat-by-mailsparky.jpgMy kids never fail to amaze me. I love that everyday I get to have a hoo-ha-ha moment, you know the kind of unexpected dose of humor that works like a shot in the arm when you’re feeling sick, and after you get it, instantly you feel better? Imagine getting this dose when you’re not even sick to begin with, and you’re in laughtime heaven!

My kids give me huge doses of laughter. Every. Single. Day. They come up with the funniest statements. Sometimes I’m afraid my mouth will resemble that of a donkey from all the laughter they manage to pull out of me at the slightest provocation. I also wonder: do I think they’re hilarious because they’re my kids? because I’m really a silly fool who’ll laugh at the simplest things? because I’m cheap when it comes to laughing? 😀 😀 😀 Who cares? Laughter never hurt anyone, right?

In the past 24 hours I was lucky enough to get two Hoo-Ha-Ha’s from my 5-year-old son:

HOO-HA-HA #1: 

Last night, I had a terrible grumbly, roller-coaster-riding tummyache. I was telling my son J how strange my tummy felt, wondering aloud in that stream-of-thought way.

Then he said: Mama, maybe you have saran-san.

Me: Huh?

J:   I said, maybe you have saran-san!

Me: Saran-san? Huh? (feeling like overnight I became a dope and my son became my all-knowing wise parent)

J:   Yes, saran-san! Remember?

Me:   (struggling, thinking-frown creases on forehead) – Saran-san?…??? 😯

J:   Yes, Mama, saran-san. You remember, you said before that Jm (our 20-month-old baby) had saran-san!

Me:   Jm? Saran-san? Huh? (Great. Now I’ve sunk even further, becoming a neanderthal from the Ice Age, unable to comprehend the simplest concepts)

J:   Yes, Mama. (trying hard to make me understand, as I grow in admiration for my son’s incredible patience with his totally lost-in-space mom) You said last week that you were giving Jm medicine for his saran-san… you said maybe he ate something bad, so he had saran-san.

Me:   (slapping forehead and resisting urge to shout Eureka) OOOOOH!! Sirang tiyan you mean!!! YEAH!!!

Sirang tiyan in the Filipino language translates to bum stomach. Obviously I need to teach my son the language soon.

HOO-HA-HA #2

Today, as we were driving to school, I happened to look out the car window and lo and behold, in front of me was a large poster of the juiciest hamburger on the wall of a restaurant (it didn’t help, perhaps, that it was lunchtime) .

I told J:   Look! Do you see that burger! That must be the yummiest-looking burger in the world!

J:   (craning his neck) Where?

Me:   There! (pointing to the wall) See? On the wall of the restaurant!

J:   Oh yeah! I see! It DOES look yummy, Mama! … (thoughtful pause. And then…) But you know Mama, when you get the burger in real life, it doesn’t look as yummy anymore.

Yep, that’s my son. All grown up at 5 years of age. Already aware of the vast divide between marketing ploys and the real thing.

Where do these kids get this, this innate wisdom of theirs? 😀

Unbelievable.

Totally unbelievable. 2 very good friends of mine (whose names both start with J… actually I am amazed that many of  my dearest friends have names that begin with J!) have called my attention to the 1st freebie of yesterday (the wordart) being not available for download with a stinky little message on it instead.

I checked out the link in total shock. I’m sure you’ve seen what it said if you had attempted to download the wordart freebie earlier. Because I consider you as my dearest friends, and dare I say, even family, with as much love and affection, I would like to share with you how I felt about the entire … what’s the word for it?…pain-in-the-derriere that happened today. Perhaps the best way to do this is to paste here the response I gave to my good friend on our playground’s board:

I have already sent an email and feedback form to 4shared support, asking them to shed some light on this. Since I have not yet heard back from them (and I know it is too soon for me to expect an answer), I have gone researching and trying to find how others have dealt with similar situations. 

Apparently, some designers who have experienced this have had 4shared support tell them that certain words and names are caught by automated filters in 4shared and are immediately removed if there is any slight risk of copyright infringement or illegal activity. Most times it has to do with pornographic stuff (heavens forbid!!!) so in that sense, J, you were right about the word/name of the author having something to do with it. Had I not placed her name on the file, the filters would not have caught it mistakenly and you would have been able to download the freebie without a hitch.

Initially, you know, I have to admit I was stupefied, dumbfounded, shocked. I take care of my name and my integrity, and to have a message like that on something I’ve made is uuuugh, indescribable torment for me. Then I went from shock to anger,/irritation,/annoyance, brought about by my failure to understand how this could’ve happened. But NOW. Now I think it’s unbelievably hilarious and crazy and unthinkable. Enough said.

 

So anyway, I took down the link. I can’t fix it immediately because I’m not home (out of town for a few days) and so I don’t have the actual wordart files on my laptop. I will change the filename and then upload it again once I’ve got everything fixed and there’s no risk of the most innocent thing as a file containing an author’s name (poor e.e.cummings) getting deleted for being possibly “pornographic”. (Can you still see me shaking my head with a look of disbelief on my face?)

 

I checked all the other freebies including those yet to come. They’re free of any such snafus. SIGH. I know better this time to put really simple one word names… though you know, given my sorta dense mind when it comes to green matters, I just very well may come up with a generic name that a filter may deem unacceptable. LOL! Hope it never ever happens again, though. Certainly not a happy experience. But definitely one that can make me into a better person if I only react with calm, peace, patience, forgiveness and… well, wisdom gained from experience?

Hugs again, and lots of gratitude!

The reason I’m leaving that post there to explain everything is because I am still shell-shocked by the experience and am totally confused and unsure whether I should just throw my head back and laugh heartily at how immensely schtoooopid this has turned out to be, that a simple name used with such innocence (it IS an innocent word, it’s a person’s name, for crying out loud!) (and a well-known poet at that!) (whose many works are most known because of their childish tone and playfulness!) (for crying out loud!!! again! and again!)… or if I should be furious, fuming, and foaming at the mouth over this catastrophe that for me has possibly laid a shadow of doubt in the minds of people who don’t really know me enough about my character and my integrity. Those who know me well enough, my family, my dearest friends, YOU… I know that you would know me better. I just wish all the others who may have stumbled across my freebie (through search engines? I don’t know) would too.

Well, it’s almost 3AM in these mountains where I type, The wind is blowing, the kids are all tucked warmly into bed, my dh is snoring his way to lala-land.. and here I am stressing over this. Unh-unh. Not anymore. I understand. And understanding is the first step towards forgiveness. And if you’re really, really lucky and sincere, at the end of the forgiveness phase, there is, mercifully and thankfully, along with the ability to know truth from fibs, the ability to laugh it all off and chalk it up to experience.

That last thing: that’s the place I want to be in right now. So I will post this, publish it, and call it a night. Maybe, just maybe, I may find myself laughing in my dreams. Thanks for hanging in with me through this, honeys. 
 

Welcome to my homeland…

And I’m proud to say I love it.

You know how, when you visit a friend’s house for the first time, you are drawn to explore every room, every nook and cranny, so that you can ooh and ahh in amazement and wonder at the beauty and love that resides in there?

My girlfriends and I have been barely able to contain our excitement at the prospect of getting together as one big group of scrapping gals in Chicago next summer. I’ve been to some places, but never to Chicago, so it’s something I’m definitely looking forward to (though even more than the city, it is the thought of seeing my friends that totally excites me!)

When all this talk about getting together began, I issued a standing invitation to everyone to come see my homeland. It’s an offer without an expiration date. 🙂 And to provide everyone of them with a sneak preview of what they could be looking forward to, I found an excellent “brochure.” It’s right here, below.

A few words, though, before you view it:

1. Photos are never really the same as the real thing, are they? In the same way, I personally feel that, though this is the best showcase (so far) of what my motherland has, there is still no substitute for seeing, tasting, smelling, and experiencing the Real Thing. And the fact that many of the best Filipino artists (including world-class Florante and Lea Salonga) are doing the story-telling is no small thing! 🙂

2. This is best appreciated in the native language, as there is no substitute for the beauty and color and expressiveness of a language in its original form; its flavor and nuances are often lost in translation. I wish I could tell you more about all the wonderful places and food that are mentioned here (like how Taal Volcano happens to be the smallest volcano in the whole world, and Mayon Volcano is known for its near-perfect cone), but it would take pages and pages and pages of writing and still I would not have scratched the surface. So I’ve just provided a link to more information–click on the “beauty of the Philippines” line in the translation below… (just put any place or item in the search box and it’ll take you to a wonderful source of information).

Enjoy the visual and auditory treat, and I hope one day to be able to enjoy all these with you, my friends, beside me. 🙂

Here’s my very rough and very humble translation of the song:

Are you feeling sad, bored, exhausted?

Are you tired, slaving away night and day?

Has your life lost meaning, devoid of spark and color?

Is everyday the same, like nothing ever changes?

Let’s go! Let’s travel together with our family,

Our closest friends, and the whole ensemble

So that we can truly have a great time.

Come on, let’s travel so that we can see

The beauty of the Philippines,

The greatness of the Filipino

Have you been to Intramuros and Luneta?

Palawan, Vigan and Batanes

Subic, Baguio, and Rice Terraces?

Have you seen the vintas of Zamboanga

Taal Volcano, Mayon Volcano

The beaches of Boracay and La Union?

Let’s go! Let’s travel from Basco all the way to Jolo

So that we can truly get to know

All our fellow Filipinos

Come on, let’s travel so that we can see

The beauty of the Philippines,

The greatness of the Filipino

From city to city

Seven thousand and one hundred plus islands

In my beloved Philippines

Let’s go to Luzon, Visayas, Mindanao

Don’t be a foreigner in your own land

Have you tried shooting the rapids in Pagsanjan?

Have you gone diving in Anilao

Or surfing in Siargao?

Have you tasted the sisig of Pampanga,

Durian of Davao, Milkfish of Dagupan,

Bicol Express and Balayan Lechon?

Let’s go, let’s travel

Then we’ll be able to help somehow

In improving the lives of all our countrymen

Come on, let’s travel so that we can see

The beauty of the Philippines,

The greatness of the Filipino

Have you joined the fun of the Pahiyas and Masskara,

Moriones and Ati-atihan,

Sinulog and Kadayawan?

Have you attended the fiesta at Peñafrancia in Naga?

Gone up to Antipolo?

Danced in Obando?

Let’s go, let’s travel so that we can attain

Happiness and friendship,

Progress and peace

Come on, let’s travel so that we can see

The beauty of the Philippines,

The greatness of the Filipino

Come on, let’s travel…

Wow, Philippines

Come on, let’s travel!